Now, I am very confused with my love life. It is non-existant, as of now, but I am confused as to what is going to happen. I like Chris. I like him a lot. A lot a lot a lot. . .*^_^* I think if he asked me to jump off of the world for him, I would. Then, there's Warren. I am going to the semi-formal with him. I haven't even met him yet, but still. I am going to the semi with him. I really wish I could go with Chris. But I probably wouldn't have a very good time if I did, considering that he still has a girlfriend. She totally ignores him, and doesn't even do anything with him. Some girlfriend that is. Anyway, now, I am worrying about Micheal. I don't know, but he's been acting weird lately. Maybe it's just my imagination, but he's been like. . .nicer or something to me. Not that he wasn't SO so so nice before, but it's just different. I am confused about that. But then again, I could just be overreacting, but the other day, we were getting a slice of pizza, and he was like, "Oh, I still don't have a date for the semi yet." I didn't want to say anything to make him feel bad because I am going with Warren. I don't know if it was directed at me, or he was just saying it as general knowledge. I think I am overreacting a bit. But, he is a pretty nice friend to me. Not close, but I still consider him to be a friend. I don't know if does, but hey, I do. I am wondering when I am meeting Warren. Our plans always get screwed up whenever we are going to do something. Chris, but Chris. He is the one that I would really die for. He has kind of been paying more attention to me lately, or at least it seems. Or maybe it is just my imagination hoping that. It doesn't matter...no...it doesn't. I promised myself I would stop oggling over him, but once I got back from vacation, I couldn't help it.
Now, if you're reading this, I don't want you to think that I'm boy crazy or anything. In fact, as of yet, I have not had a single boyfriend. But that's okay, I'm not rushing anything. I'm just getting used to having boys as normal friends. I know, I am strange.
I spent the whole entry so far talking about my meandering life. Now lets get on to a different aspect of it.
I am so failing Geometry, it's not even funny. I try my best to get good grades, I really do. I go to my teacher every morning for extra help, which gives me extra points on my average. This is good. But, my teacher is taking off eight points from my average for missing homework. It's no fair, because I did the homework, I just didn't finish it. And I'm not talking about only finishing it halfway. Only about three or four problems were missing from each of them. Each FOUR of them. That is a mighty blow to my average. I just barely scraped by with a B- last quarter. I am afraid I am going to get a C. Most people would say, "damn, why are you so worried about a stupid C?" I'm not worried...my parent's could care less, but it just makes me pissed, because I tried my hardest, and I just wasn't able to get the grade that I really deserved. My life revolves around Geometry. I was practically out for blood the other night when I didn't have my calculator. I lent it to someone, and he never gave it back. I was about ready to kill him today when I still didn' t have my calculator. I do try, I DO! My efforts go sooooooo unnoticed. They are not totally unnoticed, but no one except me knows exatly how much work I put into that stuff.
Now that I am feeling a bit more peaceful......*sigh*
Maybe I can get some sleep tonight...I am usually continuously tossing and turning from something that's bothering me.