omg, i'm fat
2002-04-21 @ 9:40 p.m.

I am so mad right now. I just tried on my prom dress, and it's a little bit more snug than I expected. I am FURIOUS at myself. How could I allow myself to get fatter? Now I will look horrible. I am not going to eat anymore. I will eat the minimal daily required servings of food. I have a date now, because Jeverson said that he is definetly taking me. Still, I can't look bad, because then I will never win him back from the evil Tatiana. I guess that's the name of the girl who he is dating at the moment. From what I've heard, she's quite a floozy. She kissed Luana's boyfriend as well, and spread rumours about her. Luana is one of Carla's friends, and we all went out on Thursday night. This Tatiana girl is bad news. So, I have to look perfect so that I can successfully write her off. Still, I want to look good anyway, and even if I didn't have a gorgeous date I would still take these drastic measures.

So, no fat at all. No candy, cookies, chips, cold cuts, or ANYTHING. Time to go to the gym at least twice a week. I've seriously got to get with it, because I can't look fat, no matter what. I can pull it off...I know I can. I have at least four weeks.

In other news, I have to go to school tomorrow, which is maddening. I don't want to go at all. I haven't done any homework the whole vacation, and I have a huge test tomorrow. Oh well. Life is like that.

We have the National Honor Society induction ceremony on Friday, and we're going to the Hilltop Steakhouse to eat. ARGH. Sorry, nothing for me, because I just can't do that to myself. I seriously can't eat. I know it sounds like I am obsessing and am going to turn anorexic or something, but that's not the case. I just have got to lose at least five or ten pounds in a short time. If I can't do it, I will seriously cry and cry and cry some more. No more drinks unless they are water, with an occasional glass of milk. My body will get used to it, I'm sure.

Wish me luck...because I am reallly going to need it a lot.

Tchau e boa noite.

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