still i think of you
2002-08-27 @ 10:30 p.m.

I have been wondering why for the past few days I've been being really on edge and mean, tired, and just plain grouchy. Then, today...SURPRISE! I seriously hate my period. I wish I could take out my organs or something so that it couldn't occur. I never get pms, but I guess maybe something changed in my diet or I didn't get enough vitamins or something. I'm usually always a little bit mean because that's my nature, but I was just being a bitch to everyone around me. My period is so unpredictable too. It can last anywhere from four to seven days, and can come every 26, 33, 29, 31 days. There's no pattern whatsoever. You'd think, at 18 years old that this shit would have figured itself out already. I guess not for me, though. Oh well, I'll just deal with it for the rest of my life, although it is the most frigging nasty thing in the world. The only good thing about be pregnant would be that you don't get your period for nine months.

I didn't do much today at all...it was quite boring, actually. This morning I ran errands for my mom and dad, and helped to prepare for the company that we were having. I made Kat go into Starbucks to get coffee, because sure enough, Laura was working. I don't want to see that thing if I don't have to. Who knows what little snide remarks she would have for me, or what fakeness of hers I would have to deal with. The people one street over are having a party, and they're so loud. I wish they would all just get drunk and pass out so that I can go to sleep in a while.

I started to keep a dream journal, starting with last night. It's a paper one, because it's easier to reach over and grab right when you wake up, rather than booting up the computer and typing stuff as your memory fades. My dream last night was just so vivid that I felt compelled to write it down. I think it was the second most beautiful dream that I've ever had in my life. Ahhh, although I'm not going to say anything about it, I'll just say that it was really colorful, lovely, and full of really good things. If I could live one dream in real life, that would be the one. Anyway, it's getting late now.

Ciao!

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