Kathleen came by today for a little while to visit Kat and I, and she even brought us back a present from her trip! I guess one day on the cruise they visited Mexico, and she went to a jewelry factory. She brought us back a silver and gold bracelet, which are both really very pretty. Kat and I are going to share them, rather than choosing one or the other. It's better that way for both of us, I'm sure. I showed Kathleen all of my new stuff for my dorm room, which she liked a lot. That was good. I'm glad that she liked what little stuff that I have already bought. I don't really know what else I need. I swear that I'll forget something really important and then die.
I want to redesign my webpage. I'm getting so sick of the colors and they layout of it. I have an idea for what I want to do, but I forget all of the HTML that I know because I never use it anymore. My pages must look so shoddy compared to those of others who've been working on theirs a lot. There are kids a whole bunch of years younger than me with more knowledge, elite design skills, and it just blows me away. Actually, it makes me feel really bad too. I don't know why I can't keep up with this stuff. I guess it's just that I taught myself HTML, and I'm too lazy to learn anything else. I can get by pretty find and get what I want from it, even though it looks sloppy. I think when I get my new computer I'm going to download Photoshop and learn how to use that. So many people have beautiful webpage graphics from learning how to use that. I want to learn too! But for now, I'll just use my crappy skills to make my page look at least a little bit better.
August 1st is national Friendship Day. I don't know what I'm going to do. I should probably do something nice for all of my friends, or at least my best friends. I'm going to e-mail Jason especially, I think, and tell him how lucky I am to have him as a friend. I was reading some of our old e-mails from 1998, (yes, I did save them!), and I realized how insecure and what a lack of self-confidence I had. I'm not totally better now, but he did help me a lot to realize my worth as a person and just how lovely I can be. I know that may sound really conceited, there were times in the past where I really did hate myself and I think I was worthless. I said it to everyone, and to myself, and I did believe it for a time. So, I've come a long way from that. And I've got him to thank as part of the solution. Everyone should tell their friends how much they mean to them anyway, no matter what day it is. And if your friends suck, use the day as a topic of conversation, and make a new friend. ^_^