I don't know, but today was not that good. I always manage to look happy on the outside, but it's this kind of shallow happiness. It doesn't really last that long. It's just kind of a cover for the way that I really feel, because I can't let other people know. I hate acting happy when I'm not. It's so fake. But I don't want to walk around all depressed and gloomy, so I'll just smile and try to be cheerful. I swear, one of these days I am going to have a nervous breakdown. Even if I told someone how I felt, I doubt they would understand how I feel. I swear, people who read this and don't really don't know me must think I am some sort of psycho. I don't care. I can't see how it is possible to feel so lonely when you are always surrounded by people who care about you. I just feel empty for some reason, like something's missing. People probably say that all the time, but that's how I feel. Everything I do or feel now just makes me feel all wrong inside. And it's not like I've been doing anything that would be considered wrong. Silly, isn't it?
I don't think I have much more to say now. It's just not working tonight.