you take my breath away
2000-12-06 @ 8:43 p.m.

I feel so relieved for today. I got the presentation over with, and that just helped me immensely. I thought I was going to die if I had to take any longer to do it. I didn't do too bad, but my hands kept shaking really bad when I was trying to hold my notes. I had to practically slap them down to the desk to keep them from shaking. I hate it so much; I almost started crying. I had to control myself about two or three times from letting me embarrass myself. Once that was over with, the rest of the day sucked because I knew that I had a math quiz coming up, and I totally bombed it. I don't think I failed it or anything, but I was really unprepared and missed a few questions. I hate when things like that happen. I hate logarithims. But even though I have three tests tomorrow, I am nice and calm and happy. I studied for all of them, and I think I am prepared well. I just want to chill out for a while and not have to contiually stress myself.

The one night I have some free time, there is no one online to talk to. With three different programs opened, you'd think at least a few people would be on. Hmm...Jackie just came on. I could talk to her, or keep writing this. I think I'll keep writing. I'm trying to listen to 'Castle on a Cloud' from Les Miserables. I don't even like that song, but Cossette is so whiny that it drives my mother crazy when I sing it to her. So, I figured that I'd learn the words to torture her even more.

I was sorting through my closet today and realized how lucky I really am. There are some people who don't have anything, and I am standing there trying to decide what to wear. It's just one of those things that all of the sudden hit me while I was just sort of thinking about something else. So, I think it would be a good idea to give my thanks somehow. I was actually looking at my skirts; I own so many of them and barely ever wear them, especially to school. I guess I probably should, but they are such a hassle, especially when you are taking gym and have to contend with changing your clothes. My New Year's Resolution should be to wear more skirts. That's so stupid, but it was kind of orginal when I first thought of it. Ohhhh well.

I have been getting back into my singing mood. Once I was happier today, I just started singing everything. It feels so much better to be happy instead of being depressed about school and the crap that goes on there. Let's see how long I can maintain this mood for. Probably a long time now that a lot of my commitments are out of the way. I tried watching Roswell on Monday, but it was a repeat. I have nothing more to say now...I'm out!

Ciao...

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