the way things used to be
2001-01-10 @ 8:27 p.m.
Wow, today was crazy and dragged out at the same time. More and more I find myself saying I can't stand the way Micheal acts, and then he does something, and I'm not mad at him anymore. I can't take it. This morning I was just hanging out before school started, and he was telling me that he was so proud that he finished his history term paper. Then he got upset all of the sudden because he forgot to make the cover page. He went into the computer lab next door, and then waved me over to come in with him just so we could chat and such. It was just nice for a change, you know, actually talking to him how we used to when we were more of friends. I realized just how much I missed the old Micheal. He's still not changed back to the way he used to be, though. It was just one of those fleeting moments that reminded me of how he used to be. Then after fourth period, I got my lunch out of my locker, and Mindy and I were walking down the hall and talking together, on our way to lunch. It was really quiet in the hallway, and all of the sudden someone runs up behind us and jumps, entangling us all in a very akward group hug. I was screaming, and I remember saying, "What the hell are you doing! You scared me half to death! AHHH!" Who was it? Take one guess, and I think you'll be right. I miss that, I really do. I wonder if he still likes Tiana. I just wish things could go back to the way they used to be. Sometimes I just think that people don't have time to be my friend anymore. I guess things will have to stay that way until other people change, because this time, it's not me.
Physics was fun today because Kathleen and I were watching a chess game played by the one and only Chris and Derrek. Guillermo came up to visit too. Chris sucks at chess; Kathleen was giving him all of these really good hints, and he still didn't take them, because he wanted to win on his own. I was trying to convince them that Kathleen's last name was Kasperov, and that she lived in Russia before. Then I laughed at Chris because he was getting his ass whipped. Still, he won't talk to me at all. I think I said before that he knows that I liked him , and now he's scared of me and won't talk to me. I don't even care anymore, because I really don't like him anymore, especially when I saw what he was really like, and that we have almost (okay, absolutely nothing) in common. It's true this time, though. I think I have finally gotten to the point where I have gotten over him. And that just feels...really good.
I shouldn't have even opened my mouth that I was going to prepare the message board for the courtyard renovation project. Jens already asked me today, one day later, if I had gotten it done. I was just telling him that my life is just a LITTLE bit busy, and that I really didn't have time at the moment to get it set up. I still need to secure someone's help and instructions on how to install Ikonboard, because I'm having trouble. If anyone reading this wants to help me, please do! I'm getting really desperate. Even if you know a page with really thorough instructions, just drop me a line. I need all the help I can get.
Ciao.
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