Yeah, well, anyway, after school today, I spent from 1:00 to 4:00 at W.R. Grace Construction Company. The scientists there are supposed to be helping us with our science fair projects. I was just happy because chris was there. But what is the use of even caring if he won't even look me in the eye? I was hoping that we would go home together, as he lives near me, and I was going to go home with Minhua. We are working on a project together. But he and Frankie left earlier than expected, and I missed out on that one. Maybe I should stop bothering. I am such a fool for even trying to get his attention at all. It is the worst feeling in the world when someone is...like that. I swear, I could write a frigging song about it.
I forgot to mention that my dad quit his job, which means no income. I am surprised we are not eating hot dogs yet. I have been mad at him since Sunday, and now he does this, the day after on Monday. I haven't talked to him since Sunday. It's kind of hard when you live in the same house. He sits in front of the television all day...It's so frusterating. I don't even want to tell anyone about it, because it's kind of embarrassing. And if the kids at school ever found out, they'd probably think less of me. I don't really care what they think, but some things are just better left not found out. I finally got up the courage to tell Mindy today, and she was very nice and kind about it. I trused her a lot, especially to tell her this. Even people who I've known for a longer time, like Jaclyn or Suzanne...I couldn't tell them. But at least I got it off my chest to someone.
I have to act out a short play in English class tomorrow. I am such a wreck. I have no guts. I don't think I can do this.
I just hope a way I can find a way to your heart....
I think I'll go eat dinner now, cry later.
ciao