I had my debate today. It was really very nerve racking and terrible. I had to get up second, and it was just so scary. When I was reading, my voice was really strained because I felt as if I might cry. I had to really push myself not to. There is something about public speaking that makes me so nervous that I start to cry, even though I'm not sad or anything. I think it's a response of the fear of becoming embarrassed. I still think I brought up a lot of good points, even though I was scared. I even went through my whole five minutes of allotted time. In the end, though, I didn't win. Or, I should actually say we didn't win, because it was Jens and me. We got two votes versus nine for the affirmative. Minhua told me that she gave me one vote, and I want to know who the other vote was from. I know it wasn't from Kerri, because she probably voted for Chris's team, because we both know that like me, she has an admiration for Chris. It couldn't have been Antonio, because he probably voted for Chris too, most likely because he wants to be his lover. I know it wasn't Katie, because she voted for Emily. It wasn't Christina, because she was probably just being a bitch. I want to know though...so I can thank them, at least, in my own heart. I know that whoever chose my side did it for me, because they saw that I was having a hard time. If it was my teacher, than I wouldn't care, but anyone else, well, I'd just like to know.
I don't care to talk about the rest of the school day, except for the fact that it really sucked and I ate a piece of a really dry bagel that would choke a bird.
After school I took the bus and made Guillermo be my slave. I threw my very heavy book bag on him and made him take all of my books, gloves, and hat. He had to leave at Davis to pick up his check from his place of employment. He only worked there two days when they said that they didn't need him anymore. I wanted to go with him, but I had to go to my sister's school and coach for her science team. It royally sucked. Then I came home and ate a lot and studied. I can't wait until I'm done with tests, and everything starts off fresh again. No more stupid calligraphy with people who don't speak English. Gym with Kathleen! <3 My legs hurt already, and they're going to get worse in gym. At least maybe I'll lose some poundage. After what I ate today...pwhew.
Well, I'm off to go and study some more!! Yaaaaaaaay!!