obsession for hours
2002-01-23 @ 8:39 p.m.
I'm so glad that I got to talk to Carla today in ceramics class. I was dying all day for that moment, because I really wanted to ask her about Jefferson. It was sort of hard to bring it up, but I did. She told me that last night at dinner he was really quiet and not eating a lot and when she asked him what was wrong, he said that he had been thinking about me. Awwww! I guess he asked her for my phone number and stuff, but she wouldn't give it to him. Damnit, I really want to talk to him now. If someone likes me then I want to spend time with them to see if I like them too. Okay, I know he doesn't speak that much English. And that's alright. I don't speak that much Portuguese. He sounds so sweet to ask about me after just meeting me that one night. I guess Carla told me that he's 22 and not 24. Hey, that's alright with me. Okay, I admit that the age is sort of pushing it a bit, but what are you gonna do? It's not really that bad. Only a five year difference. Not bad at all. Carla tells me that he kept asking her to invite me over the house or to ask to go out to the movies or do this and that, and whatnot. I wish she would just hook it up already! Maybe she'll say something else tomorrow. Tomorrow will be the last time that I see her in ceramics class. After that, I've got to do something to ensure that we still go out and stuff. I want to get a fake ID so that we can go to the club together, but Kathleen is in charge of that. If we do that, then we'll get to go to the club, and Jefferson will drive us. This would be so sweet. ARGH! I wish that Carla would just call me, or give him my number, or something. PLEASE? I know I sound like a desperate whining loser, and I'll admit that I AM. I just want to finally see what it's like to have someone like me, and act upon it. And he's cute too...
So today I just walked around all giddy and happy about my life. The air smelled a lot cleaner today. I figure that maybe if I don't see Carla for a while then I'll just call her and casually ask about Jefferson.
*tired*
Ciao...or should I say tchao?
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