After gym, Kathleen and I go up to our lockers before lunch to get our stuff for the last two periods of the day. Now, since our Spanish teacher is absent, her boyfriend always comes down to lunch with us. I wanted to give him a chance, and I wanted to be nice to him, but he is a complete asshole. I mean, everysingle conversation between Kathleen and I ends up being about him, or a story about him, or how they did this or that together. I want her to be happy, and I'm interested in her life, but right now she is seriously into overkill. Anyway, back to lunch. We are the only two who sit together, because everyone else had ditched us. The boyfriend comes down to lunch with us, takes my seat. They're off in their own little world, talking and such, and I'm just sitting there eating my sandwich. I was ignored for the whole period, then I notice that they start making out. I get so pissed off when other people do that, so why should it be any different with them. I mean, we're in school, have some freaking respect for yourself. I think it just shows poor respect for yourself as well as people around you when you have to resort to a public display of affection. She ignored me for the rest of lunch, then walked up to pre cal without me, tagging by his side. Now, I don't want people to think that I'm some sort of jealous person, or that I'm being a freak. It's just that she takes a complete 360 the second that she sees his face. It's as if he is the only being on the earth, and no one else matters. I know that's not what love is all about, because plenty of my other friends have boyfriends, and none of them act like that at all. You've got to understand that she's my best friend, and it hurts my feelings when she does that. I don't know what to say to her though, or if I should say anything at all.
I was pissed off at her for the rest of the day and just sort of floated my way through physics. After school I had a courtyard renovation meeting, which went on for an hour and a half. By then I was about to pass out, and I just wanted to go home. At that point I found out that Min wasn't going home, and that I had to go by myself. It was pouring raining outside, and I didn't want to walk it, so I called my mother. I just sat on the steps inside sulking until she got there. I was just staring off into space and humming to myself at times. It was such a depressing day, really. To top it off, I had a load of homework. By the time I got home, it was already time to go to dancing, so I packed up my stuff and went there. At first I didn't want to go, but I went after all. Since I was really upset and mad, my dancing came out beautifully. I think when you put a lot of emotion into it, you can feel it more. I didn't even feel any pain in my feet this time around. I think I was numb to it after a while. It just felt to nice to get rid of a little bit of that excess baggage, I guess.
When I came home, I choked down my supper and then did more homework. My father was in here using the computer for a while, and he knew that I wanted to go to sleep, but he wouldn't leave, because he wanted me to say something to him so he could yell at me. I wasn't about to give him the satisfaction of that, so I just sat on my bed until he left. I still am not talking to him...he's the one who's being an asshole, and I'm not apologizing to him or going to try to make amends. He has to do it this time, and I'm definetly not going to forget about his ordeals, as that is always what gets done.
Today was a little bit better, but not all that swell. I woke up early, took a shower, and then didn't have enough time to eat anything except for a banana. Then I went to school and got help with pre cal again. My teacher yelled at me and told me that I should be doing more work and that there was nothing that he could do to help me. In English, the room was blazing hot, and the windows only open half way, so I had to suffer through the entire class with a burning hot face. My damn teacher had her nice little bottle of water, and was taking sips from it as she "taught". I was going to die. Then in history, we heard the usual talk about colleges and course selection and bladdy blah blah. I didn't really listen, and just picked up random points of information that I thought would be useful. Other than that, I just blinked every so often and raised my hand when everyone else did, even though I had not idea what was being asked. In Spanish we had a sub again, so we had to go down to the cafeteria. With Kathleen, we just HAD to stop by the physics lab so that she could say to her Romeo. Fast foward to gym, and we were playing basketball again. My arm is aching so much from taking shots. I don't want to do it anymore. Then, at lunch time, we dealt with the same story as yesterday. Only this time, I just took out my pre cal homework and tried to work on it for a while. Then I walked up to pre cal on my own, and didn't even wait for them. Her boyfriend never even says hello to me. That's how much of a dork he is.
Anyway, let's get to the good points of the day. After school, I went to eat with Min and Richard. Min bought us all pizza, and we sat down and ate together. I was supposed to go and see the lady who I am going to be working for (babysitting her child), but I called her and told her that I'd be a few minutes late. I just needed to take a few minutes for myself and realax after the hell of a day and a half that I'd been having. We just talked, laughed, and ate. It was fun, because, well, it just was. Doing anything with friends is fun. Then I walked in the rain to the lady's house. Her name is Amy. I will be watching her little son, Gus, either a day or two a week. I hope it works out well, because I need the money badly, and I know that I can do this. I work well with children, and it's pretty easy to make them happy. With my first impression of Amy, I didn't like her, as she made me feel really stupid, but I hope that maybe the first time was just a misunderstanding. Anyway, I'll start watching next Wednesday. It shouldn't be too bad, really.
I didn't do my physics homework, because it was too hard. Right now I just want to go to bed, because it took me forever to write this. I hope I don't lose all of my sanity too quickly. If you don't have that, you haven't got much.