Tell Me You Love Me

feet can't ever touch the ground
2001-02-24 @ 10:45 p.m.

I can't believe just one more day lies ahead, and then vacation is totally over. Most of today was spend working on my science fair board and project with Kathleen. We polished off the paper, as well as the board, even though it took us a really long time. I think I got to know her better by spending time at her house with her and her family. I like her house. I am just glad that we finished up the project. The board looks so good; I'm sure it will be one of the best projects. I'm just still really nervous about presenting it. I don't think I can handle it, as presentation are always hard. Well, I'll just smile and do my best; I guess that's all I can ask for. Kathleen tried to help calm my nerves about the whole thing, but it didn't really help all too much. After Monday it will be all over. Breathe in, breathe out. I was having a lot of fun there. Her mom made us dinner, and we just sat and talked about her boyfriend and his friends and stuff like that. They went bowling last night with a bunch of the other C++ people from school, and she asked me to go along, but I had to work at Ceader Hill. She keeps trying to hook me up with this kid who's in our Spanish and Physics classes. I guess he doesn't have a date for the senior prom, and this girl who he likes just acts really mean toward him. I think he's really nice, but I don't think that he really thinks I'm nice or something. Kathleen always tells me that I should get to know him better. I don't know though. I will have to give you a small excerpt of our conversation, as I remember it.

Kathleen: You should get to know them better! I'm telling you, it would be a good thing.
Me: Hmmm...but I don't think they'd like me all that much. I mean, they might just be like, "Hey, YOU don't belong, so go away."
Kathleen: They're not like that. I thought they would be like that at first, but they're really not. I get along better with all of the guys then any of the girls they hang around with anyway. I think you should go to the prom with Keith.
Me: Yeah, okay. Who would want to take me with them?
Kathleen: WHAT?!? Who WOULDN'T want to take you?!? I always talk about you around them, because you're one of the nicest people I know. Well, you and Havovi. I tell them about you, and they think, "How much I would love to meet these wonderful people. How much I want to meet these goddessess!!"
This just sent us into a sputter of giggles for the rest of the supper, and it was just a really good moment. Kathleen always has so much hope for me, great expectation that I will be something wonderful. At least that's they way I see it. It's nice. I wish the same for her, but unlike me, she seems to have everything together.

After I left there, my mom picked me up and we went to the movies to see Billy Elliot. That movie was so great; I loved it. It was a bit hard to understand in the beginning with their accents and all, but it was a cool film. I reccomend it. I went with Kerri and Cathy as well, which is good, as I haven't seen either of them in a long while. I have a few letters to write tonight, even though it's late and I'm really tired. I'm going to make the most out of my day tomorrow, really accomplishing things and such. I'm content now, really. I'm feeling a strange sense of happiness right now. We shall see how long it lasts.

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