how it could be now or might have been
2001-03-13 @ 9:11 p.m.

I have found the perfect song to describe an aspect of my life. But before I even get to that, I guess I must say that I am probably still not over Chris. Today at lunch Kathleen had a soda, and we all know about how you flip the tab up and count the letters of the alphabet. Well, she got the letter which is the first letter in Chris's last name. I snatched up the tab and put in in my bag. *hehe* Everyone else at the table wanted to know why I took the tab, I mean, who it was for. I thought Kathleen was going to say something, but she never did. Thank goodness that she didn't. I think I am going to take it and string it on a little chain and hang it off my bag. I remember that I got so frustrated once that I threw one tab I had been saving for a little over a year into the street. I guess you can't really give up until all hope is lost.

We didn't win anything today in the science fair. I was so very disappointed. I really wanted to win at least an honorable mention or something. I don't think that we presented all that well, even though we tried our hardest and did a really good job on the project. I think that everyone who usually wins something did, which was depressing. Antonio was wearing a suit again!! Awww, he is just too cute. I was mad that he changed it after he was done presenting, because he looked so nice. He did really well, and he got second place in the fair. That's pretty awesome if you ask me. I saw him on the bus, and I wanted to congratulate him, but I didn't want him to think that I was scary or anything, so I didn't do it. I wish I had though, because I know that I would like it if someone wished me well after I had won something. I always regret not doing things, rather than things that I have already done.

Dancing was really stressful today. There were so many people missing that it was chaotic when we were trying to do the steps and put everything together. I get so mad when all of these people just decide not to show up, especially so close to the recital. I did really bad in our ballet dance today. I had to wear my flat shoes, because my feet a still really bruised, and I can't bend them that well. My left foot is in a terrible amount of pain if I try to flex it. They are still achy, and I knew it would be death to go up on pointe. I did well in the jazz portion; I didn't miss any steps, and I learned the new material quickly. I wanted to do the fourth-fifth turns in my ballet dance instead of the stupid other step that they gave me, but I hadn't learned the turns yet, so I guess it's okay. I want someone to teach them to me! My face is itching me. I hope that doesn't mean I'll be getting a zit or anything.

Oh yeah, I took Magenta to school today, and she got kidnapped by this stupid kid. I was going to kick him in the face, just because he is so annoying. Magenta was really popular though. People probably thought that I was crazy for bringing a stuffed animal to school. I don't care, because it was our mascot! She had a fun romp. I also had many diversions to pass the time while waiting for judges, such as making stars and listing to songs on Min's mp3 player. It's all good. I have to go read now, or do something constructive.

Ciao.

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