Everyone's in Kevin and Andy's room playing video games at the moment...I am not able to do that because I have to study for Astronomy class; I have a really big test tomorrow. I don't really know anything because I never pay attention in lecture and prefer to do the crossword puzzle instead. I should be doing some major studying, but I can't bring myself to do it just because it's so boring. BORING! I will have to do all of my studying tomorrow; I don't really care how I do in this class. I mean, I want to do well, but there's just so many things to memorize, and I don't really care about the information at all.
This weekend was definetly a really big waste. Friday night was spent in a state of drunken sadness. I was fine and having a lot of fun with my friends here until I saw the person that I have feelings for accompanied to his room by some other girl. Both of them had also been drinking, I think. I don't know...well, the story of this little screwed up sort of thing will have to be explained at some other time, but let's just say for now that it's been causing me immense amounts of pain and anguish for reasons that I fail to understand. Next time I'll explain my story. So I spent the night crying away and getting out all of the feelings that have been running through my blood for since October or so. Seriously, I don't know what to do now. Saturday I didn't do much but at night I went out to play some laser tag, which I had never done up until yesterday. It sort of scared me because I wasn't sure what to expect from it, but it ended up being sort of fun.
I'm so sick at the moment; I keep coughing a lot, and it just stings my lungs each time. I feel tired all of the time and just sort of restless. Nothing in my life is going right despite the fact that I try to make it do so. I have been slowly crumbling since winter break, and I don't know if I can glue all of my pieces back together. You know? Love and school are taking a toll on my life and slowly diminishing any feelings of hapiness that I might fleetingly feel.
I have so much to do tomorrow...I shouldn't be writing all of this crap down anyway.
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