cien misterios aclarar
2001-08-26 @ 11:24 p.m.

What a day today was. They're all such days, are they not? I feel a lot better today, knowing that I am not going back to soccer at all. I went to the doctor's this morning, since the blisters are not getting better, and I noticed that they're all funky looking. The doctor who saw me (because my regular doctor wasn't there), said that they were ulcerated. I am not quite sure what this means, but I know that they have red spots growing on them. Okay, that just sounds absolutely disgusting. So, she gave me a prescription for this cream stuff that is supposed to help them heal faster and heed off infection. I still haven't told Jackie that I'm not going to come back. I'm sure it doesn't really matter to her, considering that she's in Florida right now with Kristen. I am through with kissing her ass and trying to be friends with her. Life's too short to even consider it. She told me that everyone on the team was 'so nice', but I sure couldn't see it. Maybe because she's one of them she can see things that I can't. One of the first days that everyone was there, they started talking about another girl on the team, Annaliese. I spent ten days with this girl in Spain, and she is the sweetest person anyone could ever meet. She's one of my friends now, and they went about trashing her verbally. That's just what they do, to make themselves feel better. When I made a bad pass, or messed up on some skill I'm not so good at, I got a dirty look. Jackie had the audacity to be making plans in front of me as if she's something special, and didn't even invite me along. Seriously, I don't need this shit and these shitty people in my life. To whoever's reading this, you don't need people like that either. If you've got people in your life like my dear friend Jackie and others that get you down, seriously, just toss them aside. As I said before, and am constantly told by others, life's too short to deal with these...whatever you want to call them.

I had a nice long chat with Min today via aim. I like talking to her, because we always share the same thoughts. She told me today that she was "glad that at least we were both on the same boat." I think that we must have complementary star signs or something. I will have to check up on that. She is one of my true friends. She hasn't failed me since tenth grade, when we first bonded over sharing a hellish science fair project. All of my other friends have failed me in a huge way at least once. Well, Kathleen would also go in the catagory of not failing me yet as well. I have a few good friends. No, let me correct that. The people that I call true friends are the best people in this whole damn world. I shall keep them around for a while.

I was talking to three people on aim tonight, and they all had to leave at the same time. Why do things always happen this way? Min went to read some of Pride and Prejudice for school. I can't blame her at all for wanting to get that book finished as soon as possible. Jason forgot to write his notes for his AP Psychology class, so he had to go too. I should have just overnight UPSed my psych notebook from last year. Instant notes! I never get to talk to him for very long. But when we do get to talk, it makes me happy and smiley and all of that other good stuff. Joe ditched me after that because he had bagel bites cooking downstairs. I can't say anything bad about that because I wouldn't want to eat burnt bagel bites either. So, everyone had good reasons for leaving, which eases the pain a little bit. *hehehe*

I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow. There is supposedly a surprise birthday party for Micheal Micheal tomorrow. Yes, I typed his name twice on purpose. That's my pet name for him. He is one of the youngest friends in the bunch, and he's finally going to join the myraid of seventeen year olds. I have to call Kathleen and get the details of it all. I am not going to the party alone, 'cos I just don't like it. If I can help it, I almost never go anywhere alone, unless I really want to. So I shall call tomorrow. Now that I don't have to worry about soccer...I can have a life!

I am back to writing cracky entries again. I'm sorry everyone. I have to write in my blog at least one more time tonight. I wanted to do some sewing tonight, and biology homework, but I didn't do either. Maybe I'll still read my Spanish book. The story is pretty cute. I don't really have to finish it, but I've just been reading it on the side because it will help me remember stuff more easily once school starts. Plus, I wanted to learn more idioms and other expressions, and the book is chock full of them, with explanations. I like being able to read in another language. It makes me feel special. This means I can sing in Spanish too! Yay!

I didn't find out until later today that Aaliyah had died. I saw it online, but I thought that it was a hoax or something. I felt so awful when I had learned that it was true. I loved a lot of her songs, and I thought she was an awesome dancer with a beautiful voice. We've lost her as well as the others on the plane, which sure was tragic. Well, I am not one that prays that much, but the families of everyone who went down in that plane shall be remembered in my prayers. I hate when people die...anyone. I don't know why. Well, It's late, and I should be getting to bed soon.

Ciao.

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