it always comes around
2001-08-30 @ 10:47 p.m.
WOW! It's August thirtieth, and I didn't even notice it yet. Until right about now. It's not that big of a deal, but still. I didn't know that the month was almost over. I am going to make this short because I can. I am sort of happy right now, just because sometimes you talk to someone and it makes you happy because you like talking to them. Well, that's how I feel right now. I notice that I emphasize words a little bit too much now. I kind of type in all caps for no reason whatsoever. I want to go to bed early tonight so that I can get up early tomorrow and go out shopping. This is my plan. That is only if I'm able to go to sleep tonight. I am going to start going to bed at eleven and then maybe that will help me get down to ten, and then I can finally get up early in the morning. I am hoping that this is going to work out well. It never really does and I end up staying awake the entire night the day before school starts, but I will not let that happen this year. Oh well, maybe I'll have to. Sometimes I can't help wondering if I'm good enough. Good enough for a lot of things. I wonder if it really is shameful not to be the first in your class. I always sort of wanted it, but I guess I don't have the natural talent and am not dedicated enough to work hard for it. Is that shameful? Sometimes I wonder. I am happy with what I am right now, but everyone always wants to do better. I know that I would be totally satisfied if there were not competition at all. In a pefect world, right?
Ciao.
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