everywhere i go i'm seen
2001-09-10 @ 9:20 p.m.

Ah, another day down. I am already starting the bad habit of not finishing all of my homework when I should. I didn't finish the last few problems of Calculus because I didn't understand them at all. I don't care about that though. I'll ask for help tomorrow or something from someone in the class. I haven't read over Biology, but I'm not worried about that either. I'm making myself a stress-free year this time around, if at all possible. Tomorrow I'm going to drop off my resume to all of my teachers that I want to write me reccomendations. I figure that this way I'll get cracking on that. I hope it works out well too. Mmm...no more school stuff to think about.

This morning, I was just hanging out in Mr. Walczak's room, as the morning crew always does...finishing homework or chatting, or whatever. I was really happy when Chris came in, because he usually only shows up a little bit. He never came in the room at all until last year. This morning, he came in, sat down, and started talking about something or other. Everyone in the room was complaining about having to read Pride and Prejudice, and he said that he was just going to get the cliff notes to read. I looked at him, and just got that smile. That smile. Oh, it was so good. Just like eating a chocolate chip cookie when the first come out of the oven. Very sweet and oh so nice. When anyone smiles at me like that, I feel as if I could just die right then and there and be happy. I could just blab on and on about him for a while, knowing that I'm making everyone sick, while meanwhile I'm growing all the more happy. There's been so many times when I've said that I'm going to give up and stop chasing him, and then something stupid and small like that happens, and I just lose my head again. In Spanish I could have sworn that he was looking over at me quite a few times, and one time I did actually catch him, and he turned away. I don't even think he's interested at all, but if he ever was I'd consent to anything in a second. If I passed a chance up with him, that would be...inconcievable as far as I'm concerned. I think it's the eyes...so blue...and the personality. Argh, he's online now...I don't think I could ever talk to him online. He'd probably think I was really weird or something. That's all I need people to think. We'll see, I've got the whole year ahead of me to plan my tactics. Hopefully he won't move too far away when he goes to college. We all know how that works.

I'm not going to get too much into my day right now, as I've still got work to do for school. If you care to hear some small blurbs about my day, then consult the weblog. Yes, I am sure that you will.

Ciao.

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