let them eat cake, she said
2000-09-24 @ 9:41 p.m.
Oooh, I am feeling just a bit tired and stuff now. I went to a party tonight for our neighbor, who was turning nintey years old. It was a really nice party. I got to meet a lot more of our neighbors that I don't usually talk to. I even talked to Marissa, the neighbor which I have estranged myself from since seventh grade. There was an Irish band who played music throughout the night. There was lots of good food too. They even had a magician there for the kids. I got a little bored with watching him, but he had some pretty good tricks. He made balloon animals too, and even though I didn't want to go up to get one, I just had to. I wanted to make my sister go up and get one, but she dragged me up so I could get one myself. I got an orange giraffe. I think I will name him George. I hope I don't wake up tomorrow to find him all deflated. The magician also had a white bird, which I feel in love with. The bird's name was Alexander, and I thought that it was a very cute name for a bird. I wanted to steal him and take him home with me. I also sampled a few different alcoholic beverages. Bleck, I don't think that I will be taking up drinking anytime soon. I had a sip of beer, a sip of white ziffendel, and a sip of a Cape Codder, which I don't know what the heck it was made up out of. The first taste was really good, then the nasty taste of the alcohol set in. I think if I am going to be doing some drinking, I'll just hold my nose and swallow it really fast. All in all, the party was really very nice and fun.
I don't want to go to school tomorrokw. I did a really crappy job on all of my homework, and I hope I don't have to discuss it tomorrow. I will be so lost. I'll just try to be quiet and make them not notice me. There are still some nice things about school though. Such as the people. So I will not feign sick tomorrow. I remember what I said to Kathleen on Friday once school got out. I told her that maybe this weekend, someone would throw a rock through her window with a million dollars attached to it. I asked her if it would make her happy. She told me that there is no reason that the money would make her happy at all. She is still miserable over Derek. I am so shallow sometimes. I thought that stupid things like money would make her happy. Actually, I was just joking around with her, but she took it so seriously.
I've been thinking that maybe lately I am too insensitive to other people's feelings. Sometimes, I am. I thought I was being insensitive to a situation a little while back. I thought I was saying things that might have hurt someone else, that they were the wrong things to say. But then I realized that it wasn't the case. Then I felt stupid, because I thought that someone really cared about me...but it wasn't me. I don't think it was ever meant to be me. Well, I know that is very confusing. But if you were me, then you would understand.
If I had anything else to say, then I forgot. So, it will be continued...
Ciao.
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