In Pre Cal, I was looking over at Antonio for a second. I got really embarassed because he looked over at me, and then we were just kind of staring at each other for a split second, and then looked away. It's kind of one of those things when you look at someone, they look at you, and you both know that you're looking at each other, but you pretend you're not because you're embarrassed. It really sucks. When I got out of driver's ed with Guillermo, it was raining outside. I saw him waiting for the bus near us. I sat with Guillermo in front of him in the bus. I hope he didn't think that Gui was my boyfriend or anything. I don't know, I just get the feeling that he was looking at me. Speaking of people staring at me...In Spanish class, I sit next to Arshan, and at one point during the class, I was just sitting there doing my work, and I could feel him staring at me. I mean, helloooo...take a damn picture, it lasts longer. I felt so creeped out by it. I hate when people stare at me. It's as if they are inspecting your every move. And that's just not cool. It is just very uncomfortable, for people to be staring, you know.
I had a very novel idea today. But I forgot what it was. I always think of all of the weirdest stuff in school while I'm bored. I was really bored in driver's ed, so I let Guillermo draw a face on my hand. Then I was making it talk. It was very funny, for at least a few minutes. Then I just got a little bored with it. George the giraffe balloon animal is still alive. It is a very surprising thing.
I am going to make a theory. I think that people have a lot of stuff in their minds that they never say, even though they think of it all of the time. It's like they are a afraid of what other people will think if they let it out. I can think of all of the things that I've wanted to tell people, that I keep inside my head. But if I said them out loud, it would just sound really weird. I don't know. Now that I've typed it out, it doesn't make as much sense to me anymore. I think I mean that people never say what they truly feel about other people. Not just things in a love sense or anything, but just general thoughts.
Oh, I am fed up. I had to walk home in the rain today, and I ended up looking like a drowened rat. But I am going to end this entry now, because it is just stupid. It sounds like I was on crack when I wrote it. But I really wasn't, which isn't very fair, because it came out so bad. I think I am confused. I think I am very confused. It started off okay, and then just got progressively worse.